the loopwriter

I didn’t realize how much I missed YOI, after all.

Me post-breakup with YOI was in a bad place, fandom-wise. Forget rewatching the show, I couldn’t even bear listening to these songs before. That’s how hurt and jaded I was that time. Then I moved on with life and other things and I can’t pinpoint when exactly it was that my bitterness mellowed out, but I soon realized I didn’t hate it as much anymore. Still wasn’t ready to rewatch it, though.

At some point I reread some short YOI fics on a whim, and I remembered all the things I liked about YOI. It kept me sane through med school. It made me meet my first real fandom friends. I finally remember how it felt like to have something I was invested in. I missed that.

I’m glad I let time heal me.

The same thing is currently happening, but for BSD. This is why I shouldn’t invest myself too much in fandom, lest I get burnout again.